Radical Self Nothing?

I've been perusing the tomes available to me on the vast internet and have come across a "Radical Self Love-r" Gala Darling. She's full of beauty and self-love that many wish they had. Reading her blog has inspired me for more than a few life changes and I hope that she realizes the impact hat she has on the world today. Which makes me think? Where is my impact?

As many of my friends and family could relay I am a freak for film and I will recall scenes of movies and television shows at a moments notice. I find the impact film has had over the last 70 years as incredibly relevant to the way we live our lives today (only few pockets of people live in the world where this medium has not touched them). Honestly, I also find it an easier avenue to speak of in conversation. Mainly because you can generally find someone who likes the same movie-- but not always the same book.

I read. I read Book Club finds and random things I pick up in the bookstore. I read internet news and blogs. There is so much I read and when I try and talk about it, there is so little that anyone else is interested in. Today, I found the largest dog in the world, I found that the Starbucks CEO is being a personal hero of mine right now and that Jerry Lewis was married to his first cousin once removed for many years and that they were married when she was 13 years old and had 2 children together over their 13 year marriage. I know random stuff. I read random stuff and I am afraid that my random reads are making me a bit confined to my own head.

Promotions at work and opportunities galore, what is it that makes reading my thing? Random knowledge that no one will ever want to know? They won't ask me that at the job interview! And so my passion is radically self-destructing me. I have transported a formerly adventurous spirit in body to adventures in the mind and I think it may be holding me back a bit....

So how do we love ourselves and our passions at the same time? How do I draw the line between my passion for reading and knowledge and my love of myself? Sometimes passions can get in the way no? I think this leaves me at Nothing.